| recovery |
[Dec. 26th, 2009♥07:05 pm] |
i've been recovering somewhat good, but every few days, there will be a relapse of you haunting me. i will just think about all the times we shared, and now you're sharing those good times with someone else. heck, you're enjoying it more than you did with me. you love him more than what you promised me.
im not angry, im not depressed, im not emotionally shaken. im just, filled with regrets, all i want is to just hold you one more time and never let you go.
but its not going to happen, i want to live in denial that in truth, you love me that's why you let me go. but the truth isn't there. you love him that's why you had to let me go.
its not going to happen, you coming back, but i want it to happen, my heart still longs for you.
your birthday's coming, and i don't know how to face you in the midst of all your friends and your new boyfriend. i dont even know if you sincerely want me there or youre just simply putting on a mask, pretending you want me there.
you spin me white lies, hoping me being in denial is going to make me happier. but you forgot what kind of person i am. i don't live in denial, i hurt myself by digging out the cold truth. you know that im going to find out everything sooner or later but yet you keep lying and lying to me time and time again.
you promised you still want me in your life, but i guess that aint gonna cut it.
goodbye. |
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